Finding Beauty In The Ruins And Healing Gracefully

Emotional Health, Spiritual Health

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This is not a murder mystery.  Nor is it fictional. The characters involved are real and paid with their lives to the financial gain of medical entities.

June and July were emotionally charged months for me!  

I never thought the process of filling out legal paperwork required by the court for the lawsuit against the doctors and hospital that killed Doug would dredge up the pain and suffering that I have been able to shelve and bring out only when I am in a safe place or with people I feel comfortable with…

Grief lingers, pain doesn’t diminish. Tears can flow even with a flash of memory of a funny conversation or incident in the past.  Everywhere I go and everything I’m used to doing with Doug brings back memories and elicits regret and extreme despair.  The feeling of being trapped in a nightmare, as if I will never escape the prison of such tremendous loss..   Even mundane  activities that Doug and/or Joanne did  that I now have to do everyday, awaken the painful memories that I push down deep within my heart.  

Will it ever subside?  Will I ultimately get in the habit of putting my grief on a shelf and bring it out only when it’s safe?

In late 2022, I learned that my husband, Doug, and my daughter, Joanne may have met their untimely death at the hands of doctors at Providence St. Joseph Hospital in Orange, Ca. I had no idea what to do.

By God’s grace, I read an article about a woman in Oregon whose husband went into the hospital for Covid 19 and was dead a few days later.  Here’s the article.  

Please read it as information on thousands of victims in different states and different hospitals have recently surfaced as having gone through very similar hospital protocol and met their untimely deaths.

The following stories mirror that of hundreds, maybe even thousands, of people, men, women of all ages, including young people that went into the hospitals across the country and left in a body bag.  This includes my husband and my daughter.  If you were to look at their medical records, the protocol is the same, Remdesivir, opiates and all kinds of unnecessary, debilitating  medication, starvation and dehydration.  

Medications like Remdesivir were given without permission, opiates prescribed just to cause havoc in the body and negatively affect respiratory and other important organ systems and  their functions!  

I had no idea this happened to my husband.  I only found out after I forced myself to look at his medical records with the help of a faithful friend.  I was horrified at his weight loss of 11 pounds in 10 days!  Doug was over oxygenated to the point that one of his lungs collapsed.  It was horrifying to learn what my husband experienced in the hands of money grubbing doctors.

How could I let that happen to my precious husband who I would protect with my own life?  Doug was loved and treasured every day.

It’s difficult to believe that this can happen in this country.  That’s why I am including this article here.  

Greed and power has taken over the souls of those in leadership in the medical communities and the government.  All for the love of money!

This article also led me to the organization FormerFeds Group which is a group of people, volunteers, around the country whose goal is to expose and reveal the evil and malevolent activities by doctors and hospitals using the hospital killing protocol to cause deaths and to help families find justice for their loved ones.


‘It’s Truly Unreal’: Stories of Negligence at the Hand of COVID-19 Hospital Treatment Protocols Continue to Surface

After the death of her husband at the hand of what she believes to be hospital COVID-19 treatment protocols, Joanne Eyerly’s life was uprooted in grief and confusion.

She had to sell most of her belongings and their home in Oregon to move to Ohio, where today she scrambles to put the pieces together.

Of one thing Eyerly said she is certain: “They euthanized him,” she told The Epoch Times. “I know that they did.”

Greg Eyerly was admitted to the hospital on Sept. 22, 2021. Eyerly was not allowed to stay with her husband, so she stayed in communication through text.

It seemed like he was getting better, she said, until Greg reported that he hadn’t been receiving hydration for a week. “I think they are stopping taking care of me,” Greg texted her.

Eyerly called the doctor, asking for basic fluids and vitamin D, C, and zinc treatment for Greg, she said.

“This doctor yelled at me, saying, ‘I don’t know what research you’re looking at, but we’re not doing that. That’s not what we do,’” Eyerly said.

Greg texted her that he was losing body mass rapidly and that he wasn’t being fed.

“Please help make sure there is a plan to get me out of here,” Greg texted.

Throughout his stay, Greg reported that he was seeing less and less medical staff, and Eyerly said she was getting fewer updates on his condition.

‘We Had to Give Him a Chance’

On Sept. 30, Eyerly said Greg made a 39-second call to the Tualatin Police Department, though the department has no record of the call, she said.

The next day, Eyerly was told that Greg needed to be put on a ventilator or he would die.

“We said yes,” she said. “We had to give him a chance.”

On Oct. 1, staff called to tell her that Greg needed protein. Since there were no protein drinks in the ICU, Eyerly needed to go out and get one for him, she said.

With the National Guard at the front entrance, Eyerly said she still wasn’t allowed inside and had to leave it at the front desk.

When she got home, she received a call from hospital staff telling her there had been an emergency and that Greg needed to be ventilated immediately.

Later, she spoke with the doctor who ventilated Greg, and he reported to her that Greg was in no way close to death, and that “his lungs just needed a break,” she said.

However, on Oct. 5, hospital staff reported to her that the ventilator had stopped working and that she and her children needed to come to see him, she said.

“I don’t understand what happened between October the first and the fifth,” she said. “The doctors didn’t offer any information.

‘It Makes No Sense’

None of it added up, she said, and she had no time to process any of the multiple inconsistent reports from hospital staff.

“I had to come in quickly if I didn’t want my husband of 30 years to die alone,” she said. “My kids and I watched as he took his final breath. My 21-year-old daughter was so distraught she had to be taken out of the hospital in a wheelchair.”

‘I Can Prove Negligence in a Heartbeat’

Gloria Kniesler has reviewed “thousands upon thousands” of medical documents that describe cases just like Eyerly’s, she told The Epoch Times.

Kniesler, a registered nurse of 22 years in New Jersey who was terminated for declining the COVID-19 vaccine, now volunteers to review cases like Eyerly’s for, a website set up to inform people on what it describes as the dangers of hospital protocols.

“They didn’t even feed some of these people,” Kniesler said. “They let them starve, and I can prove negligence in a heartbeat.”

The protocols, as described by several physicians, nurses, and families of patients, usually involve isolating the patient after admission, not allowing family contact, putting the patient on several sedatives and pain killers, keeping the patient malnourished, and finally putting the patient on a ventilator before the patient eventually dies.

The hospital then writes it as a COVID-19 death, getting federal reimbursements through the Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services (CMS).

‘Something Wasn’t Right’

In her review of the case of Therese Hernandez’s father, Vietnam War veteran Joseph Occhipinti, Kniesler said Occhipinti had gone to the hospital in New Jersey to get monoclonal antibody treatment.

However, when the hospital found that he was unvaccinated, the treatment protocols changed from monoclonal antibodies to remdesivir, Hernandez told The Epoch Times.

“We thought he was getting better, and all of the sudden he began telling us that they were forgetting to feed him,” Hernandez said. “They forgot to bring him food and water. I told him they’re not forgetting. Something was wrong. They were neglecting him.”

He went into kidney failure as his organs began to fail, Hernandez said.

Similar to Eyerly’s and other cases, Hernandez got the call telling her that her father needed to be put on the ventilator or he would die, she said.

“They scared us into venting him,” Hernandez said. “By that point, his kidneys were completely shot.”

Occhipinti was kept isolated from the time he was admitted on Sept. 3 to his death on Sept. 29.

“They called us and told us, ‘You better get up here now because it’s not looking good,’” she said. “Just the day before, they told me he was improving. So they pretty much lied to us the entire time he was in the hospital,” Hernandez alleged.

In addition to being devastated, Hernandez said she also felt “that something wasn’t right.”

“My father was a healthy 68 years old and had no health problems,” she said. “He had just retired and was enjoying life. That was ripped from him for no reason. He fought for this country and this country failed him.”\

‘It’s Truly Unreal’

The level of neglect Kniesler said she’s seen in Occhipinti’s and other medical records is “heart-wrenching,” she said.

“There’s a lot I can list that they are doing, and a lot of things I can list that they are not doing,” she said.

Light exercises such as deep breathing practice and walking aren’t encouraged when they should be, Kniesler said, leaving the patients forced to stay in bed even when they show signs of improvement.

“Putting COVID, these protocols, and the use of Remdesivir aside, I’m seeing so many other things I can’t even believe I’m reading,” Kniesler said. “It’s truly unreal.”


This is the harsh memory I have to live with.  My husband and my daughter were/are the most important people on earth to me!  I would have given my life in exchange for theirs. These are people that I would protect with my own life.  Yet, I could not do so against the evil hospital killing protocol they were subjected to.

From this point forward, I can only speak of what Doug went through.  I don’t have access to Joanne’s medical records, I am assuming she went through the same protocol.  She was intubated and probably told that she would be removed from it when her breathing got better.  Little did we know that 99+% of people intubated died.

Loss of loved ones is devastating beyond words.  The only reason I am on my feet is the truth of God’s word which gives me the hope that only God can give.

“We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”  2 Corinthians 5:8

I am assured that Doug and Joanne are with the Lord and were with the Lord immediately after they passed.

Here is another promise that strengthens and focuses me to look upward and move forward.

“For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first.  Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord.  Therefore comfort one another with these words.” 1 Thessalonians 4:16-18

I have found “Beauty” in the “Ruins” of my life. This doesn’t come easy. I have to admit, it is a daily effort. There are days when I can’t see beyond the cloud of broken heart that affects my vision. My strong spiritual foundation has kept me grounded.  My intimate relationship with Jesus, the Holy Spirit He gave to dwell within me, to guide me in every step of the way, the Holy Scriptures that I can meditate on and the times of prayer when I can talk directly to the Father. These are all the ways and the means that I have kept my feet on the ground and my head above the water..    

LOSS is horrible, loss of marriage in a divorce, loss of financial stability, loss of valuable relationships.  These are all painful and most often manifests in physical, emotional and spiritual destruction that may be beyond repair!  

I am living proof that you CAN overcome and triumph over these “ruins”.

Thank you for making time to read this article. I pray it has inspired you in overcoming your own “wilderness”.  Please subscribe to my (Youtube link here) and (my website here) to watch videos, read blogs, get tips and resources that will help you or others you know.

Tips and Resources: 

If you’re going through any type of pain and sorrow, here are a couple of tips on using Aromatherapy and Face reflex points to stimulate emotional uplifting.

1) doTERRA’s Anchor, called the oil of centering, offers steadiness when a person experiences upheaval or instability in their outward or inward life.

Drop a drop or two of Anchor on the palms, rub them together and bring up to the nose to inhale deeply for 30 seconds to a minute.

Anchor essential oil has properties that steady, calms and supports.

2) Put a drop of doTERRA Myrrh essential oil on your hand.  Dilute it with fractionated coconut oil and apply all over your face. After applying, use your knuckles and massage the whole face for 2-3 minutes.  Enjoy the calmness it will bring.

3) Here’s the message from God to strengthen you and assure you that He is faithful and He is involved in what’s going on:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:5-6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


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